Grasp as we may, change escapes us like an elusive eel, slipping out of our hands despite our desperation. Until change becomes the only viable option, we will retreat to realms of comfort and predictability; we will remain victims of diffuse desire versus champions of change.
Until something in your life situation repels you so fully that you are left in a bare-knuckled fist fight against yourself, you will not change. Until you find your circumstance so revolting that you would rather blind yourself than see another iteration of your indignity, you will not change.
When you are faced with the sobering realization that, things cannot go on like this anymore, you will immediately see a fork in the road and be compelled to go one of two ways. This will be your last choice before choice disappears altogether. You will have to choose: either (1) I succumb to my circumstance let the consequences of my parasitic choices proliferate, or (2) I take a new, uncertain path that will lead me away from my old self and towards something completely new.
If your situation is psychologically intolerable, you will make the second choice. From that point on, no other option remains. You will gain the support of all of your split-selves within your psyche, all of the aspects of you that have been so disparate and divergent. Your energy will align and channel ONE path, ONE choice, and lead to ONE outcome.
Until the moment arrives when you find no salvation in any solution but total transformation, change is simply not possible. Because the parts of you that are not interested in change will hold you back. They will sabotage you, silence the parts of you that are screaming for forward action.
We are psychologically complex as human beings. We have competing needs and desires and illusions and fantasies, all vying for the effort and attention of one mammalian brain. Our brain will push us towards the habitual, where the inertia of our past impels us to go.
Change requires an electroconvulsive shock to break apart our neural pathways. This electroconvulsive shock comes in the form of emotion — of a sudden, stark, and electrocuting realization that, if our psyche is to survive, it must change.
Marshall the emotion to electrocute your psyche. Allow yourself to feel the psychological intolerability of your circumstance. Then, change becomes not only possible, but inevitable.